i am a person

i am here
sitting in the dead centre of the green couch
i'm seventeen years of age
it is May 4th 2009
9:22 pm
i need to remember how it is
to be this young and to be the way i am
my toenails are painted black
and my hair is short and has highlights
i smoke cigarettes and marijuana basically daily
i am single
i am small
i am about to go to sac city for cosmotology
i live in my parents house
and i dont know who i am yet
the things i believe in are not yet positive in my mind
this is the time of the great schism
falling from my former beliefs
in this time, i believe in almost nothing
death is nothing, yet the most terrifying notion i've yet concieved
i am a scared person