i can still get sad

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy
That he's lost and alone, yeah
I hate our favorite restaurant, favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
And never answer the phone

I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

I'm sick of always hearing
Sappy love songs on the radio
This place is fucking cursed and it's plagued
And I can never escape when my heart it explodes

I can't forgive
Can't forget
Can't give in what went wrong
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life
I'm kicking out fiercely at the world around me
What went wrong

I'm kicking



why, oh God, why do i still think of you
its so sickeningly cliche
and melodramatic

fuck, i cant let this kill me
but the lyrics give it fuel
and spark the memories that hurt so bad
with each key on the keyboard my little fingers hit
i give more energy to it
with every two or three minutes of beautiful, meaningful song and accompanying music
i die a little
even to admit that is death

and when i drive in the car
the intersection of pain, i pass every day
hoping that you'll see me
praying that i dont see you

AND IT WAS SO LONG AGO
years have passed, time, experience, tears, so much pain, and so much happiness has gone by
and yet you are a staple in my fucked mind
my fucked memory
and i hate to still give you credit that,
because i cant bear to put the blame on myself