going beyond

november 2nd: sun is in scorpio, means Intense Scorpio stimulates transformation at the deepest level.

saturn in libra: Saturn will be entering Libra on October 30th, 2009. If you are a Libra, many challenges and new obligations will be put before you. Your acceptance of these challenges is revealed by your natal Sun and aspects. For all intents and purposes, the vibration will change from organizing and detailing everything and anything (Saturn in Virgo) to deciding what works and what doesn’t. Saturn will ask you to examine the area that it transits in order to update and revise outworn conditions that weaken this part of your life. You will use your Libra powers of artistic symmetry, affability, cardinality and social awareness to change the vision of Libra in your personal chart. Saturn is exalted in Libra and responds well. Saturn entering Libra will structure where the structure is weak. Stabilize any discordant situations and restructure, providing the needed structure that has been lost thru the past, to establish a new solid foundation for you to build upon.


first of all, this has been a series of events all leading up to this great profession.
i give some of the credit to the planets for giving these events structure and affirming what has happened.
and most of the credit to the one's who have seen this and professed it first. the teachers, intellectuals, optomists, reasoners, sceptics, philosophers, speculators, scientists, theorist, wisemen, visionaries, and students.

my first trancendence:
i traditionally sat cross legged, hands resting on knees, index finger and thumb together
i listened to medatative rainforest
i breathed long and deep
and first focused on thinking of fewer things
and then fewer
and then tried to focus completely on my breath
the more i concentrated on just the breathing the deeper i got
i thought about the infinite nature of myself and of everything else
i thought about infinite space
slowly, my hands and my mouth began to tickle and vibrate
this became more and more intense in my hands
it felt like they were being compressed and radiating at the same time
i lost all control of my hands as this vibration became more intense
on my right hand my fingers became erect
on my left hand my thumb middle and ring fingers were curled in, fore finger and pinky erect
this vibration spread into my arms, the front of my stomache and into my thighs
at some point it was almost whole body
it felt like something was squeezing my hands at different points on the hand
pressing fingertip to fingertip or just the palm itself, and definitely moving
i consiously came out of my mediation because it rapidly became uncomfortable and i was not able to relax my hands to their proper state
about ten minutes after decending my hands were still frozen as they were
slowly, as i continued to stop focusing on where i had just gone they began to relax

after coming down from this legitimate high here is what i've realized:
through meditation, i can strengthen my entire self
i feel so insanely, completely enlightened
i have just tapped into the cure for myself
now, i feel as if i can reach out and touch anything
infinite possibilities and so much potential
for the first time in my life i WANT to be strong
i can apply these things i learn through my mind to "reality"
like i have just reversed the spin of the planet i live on
i feel in control, i can confidently say I CAN, serious positive regulated progression is real for the first time ever