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i've learned

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do isbe someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do but to the best you can do.

I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important.
It's what they do about it.

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learnedthat no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better besomething else to take its place.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angryI have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give methe right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish.
Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that your family won't always be there for you.
It may seem funny,but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other
And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.

I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that although the word "love"can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.

I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

things

the sky. long walks. things carved only by nature. new ideas and subtle coincedences. all natural vitamin D. people who ask questions. the Tao Te Ching and celestial bodies. vigorous dancing. open areas, secret areas. strange strangers rather than common strangers. dream-life. lessons. courage. manifested thoughts with similiar minds. patience. lots of sushi. powerful lyrics. muscles and skin. ecosia.com. camel cigarettes. finding two trees that grow as one. a glass of red wine. the man i adore. any work of art. Burning Man 2010 (hopefully). Yin and Yang. astrology. simplifying. singing. the lifestyle of the first foragers. weather. smiles. body art. i want to visit Kyoto sometime in my life. government/industrial conspiracies. things i find sacred.

reality dream decipher

Book
To see books in your dream, indicates calmness. You are moving toward your goals at a slow and steady pace.�Books also symbolize knowledge, intellect, information and wisdom.

Circle
On a less positive note, it may also mean that you are going around in circles in a particular situation. Or the circle can indicate monotony and endless repetition

Room
To dream that you are in a room, represents a particular aspect of yourself or a particular relationship. Dreams about various rooms often relate to hidden areas of the conscious mind and different aspects of your personality.
Pool
To see a pool of water in your dream, indicates that you need to understand and deal with your emotions. You need to dive right in. Alternatively, a pool may indicate your need for cleansing. You need to wash away the past.

Airplanes
To see an airplane in your dream, indicates that you will overcome your obstacles and rise to a new level of prominence and status. You may experience a higher consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness. Perhaps you need to gain a better perspective or wider view on something. If the airplane is taking off, then it suggests that an idea or plan is about to "take off" and be put into action. It may also represent you need to get away and escape from your daily life

Beggar
To see or dream that you are a beggar, represents your sense of insecurity and lack of self-worth. You feel that you are undeserving. To dream that you are helping a beggar, indicates that you will overcome your hardships and inadequacies.

Airport
To see a busy airport in your dream, signifies the desire for freedom, high ideals, ambition, and hopes. It is an indication that you are approaching a new departure in your life. Some new idea is taking off or is ready to take off. You may be experiencing a new relationship, new career path or new adventure.

Escalator
To see an escalator in your dream, indicates movement between various levels of consciousness.� If you are moving up in the escalator, then it suggests that you are addressing and confronting emotional issues. You are moving through your spiritual journey with great progress and ease.�

Outlaw
To dream that you are an outlaw, signifies the repressed and animalistic side of your character. Alternatively, it suggests that you feel the rules do not apply to you. You feel that you are above those around you

Actor/Actress
To�see an actor or actress in your dream, represents your pursuit for pleasure.

Yellow
The color yellow is symbolic of intellect, energy, agility, happiness, harmony, and wisdom.

Secret
To dream that you or someone has a secret, represents hidden power. It suggests that something needs to emerge from your unconscious.

Groups
To see a group in your dream, refers to the merging of various aspects of your character and personality
Gang
To dream that you are a gang member, signifies your need to achieve and accomplish things through force and intimidation. The dream draws attention to the primitive, unruly aspect of yourself.

Meeting
To dream that you are in a meeting, suggests that you need to redirect your energies toward a more productive endeavor. Alternatively, you are learning to accept various aspects of yourself

Sirens
To hear sirens in your dream, signifies a situation or problem that is giving you much stress. The sirens may serve to get your attention and focus on the problem at hand.

Police
To see the police in your dream, indicates a failure to perform or to honor obligations and commitments. The police also symbolizes structure, rules, power, authority and control. Perhaps you need to put an end to your reckless behavior or else the law will catch up to you. You fear punishment.

Shooting
To see a shooting in your dream, indicates that you have a set goal and know what you are aiming for in life. Your plans are right on target!

Crying
To dream that others are in tears, indicates that you need to rethink your actions and how your behavior may be affecting those around you

Tricycle
To see a tricycle in your dream, indicates an ease of tension in your life. It may also symbolize simplicity and a carefree nature.

Spiral
To see a spiral in your dream, indicates that some situation in your waking life is spilling out of control. Alternatively, it may represent your creative power and new ideas.

Branches
To see branches in your dream, symbolize good luck, growth, and new life. Alternatively, branches represent the relationships and communication between you and your family or relatives

Bury
To dream that you bury something, suggests that you are hiding your true feelings. Or you are trying to cover up some situation or act.

Grave
To dream that you are at a grave, indicates that you need to delve into your own unconscious in search of an issue that you thought had been put to rest. You need to stand up for yourself for no one else can do it for you. Alternatively, it represents something is about to be completed in your life. You are leaving behind the old and making a new start. The dream may also be a pun on feeling grave or concerned about a serious or sad situation.
To dream that you are digging a grave, denotes some nervousness and uneasiness over some undertaking.

reality dream

someone was telling me about a book, and how a man had only started reading it and it changed his life. i had the book. on the cover was a picture of the inside of a large room, on one side on the second floor was a big sphere of a room made of glass pannels. on the other side of the second floor was just a floor and stairs coming down to the first floor where there was a swimming pool in the center of the room down below.

i was reading the book on an airplane, and a little girl came down the aisle with a little white bag asking for money. i gave her two quarters, her mother asked me "why are you sitting on top of a swimming pool" as if to say "i really needed a swimming pool below me?" i look down and sure enough i glimpse a pool below my seat.. i feel bad for this luxury when the little girl is asking for money so i give her two more quarters.

sometime either before or after i get off the plane i go into this room where they have video projections of people talking, each in their own cavity. most are celebrities like james franco, pussifer (who is a woman), and a news broadcaster. they're all talking at once. each one had read the book. thats why they were there.

i'm off the plane and am in the airport; someone says something about the book (could have been me) and i drop it as i go up the escalator, it lands in the hands of someone else. i get to the second floor and someone tells me "they're checking all of the girls who got off your plane". i look down and sure enough there is a girl who looks totally normal, my age, who stops another girl in her tracks and searches her. i knew they were searching for the book, or more importantly the person who read the book. i panic, but remember the girl who was searched below had been running. so i don't run. i walk calmly.

suddenly, the picture of what is really going on becomes clear as a woman in a yellow suit who looks like a ninja flies off the second floor (slow motion) and comes hurdling down into the glass sphere room on the other side, i see the men inside scream as she shatters the glass. the men inside are old, white, suit wearing, evil men. they're in control. the woman in yellow is there to kill them. i realized as she was flying through the air that the book was reality. it was just hidden before.

i am now a part of a large group of people, all carrying the secret of reality, all who have read the book. its like the movie Fight Club. there are people from the group everywhere i go. we don't know it by each other's faces, but we do know we're out there, looking out for each other. the man who warned me first was a part of the group, the woman in yellow was a part of the group.

it is a dangerous group to be in, since the evil white men in charge don't want anyone else to get their hands on the secret or the book. and there are many deaths for what we fight for.

but once you know the secret, there is no turning back, not that we would want to.

there is a meeting. there is over 100 of us together, mostly men. che is with me and we're sitting on the side in two lawn chairs. there is a man sitting in the middle and she tells me he is the one who started the group. he is african american and has a face to be trusted.
he gets up and sits on the ground in front of che and i. she seems to know him personally and greets him. i extend my hand and say "its an honor", he shakes it and smiles.
he begins speaking and che giggles at something he says. i say "shut up" and he also says "shut up che". for some reason its not rude, its just protocal and it is important for us to be able to hear what he has to say.
suddenly, we hear sirens. he says "i knew they would be coming". i figure they're coming because there are so many cars parked in one place at night but who knows. che and i stay behind and most of the other group members disperse.
but then there are shots heard. che and i start to go up the hill to the street to see what is going on. she is running, i am walking slowly, i see everything in slow motion. i look to the right and see one group member pushing a cop, the cop pushes back, another man (cop or member) gets involved, pushing. it doesn't get more violent than that but the look on the cop's faces say they are just as upset as the group members. i look to the left, a member is screaming and yelling but i dont hear him, he's yelling at a cop who is half slumped over the trunk of his car, crying. the member is crying. i look at che, members are holding her back, she's hysterical crying and screaming.
a group member had been shot.
i didn't know why everyone was so upset, members got shot and died all the time.
we heard more sirens, more cops were coming and this meant trouble. but our leader told us in an authoritive tone he'd taken care of it.
a group member pulled up in the cop car and i got in with some other members. his vision becomes mine; he started driving crazy, over the field and grass, making hard turns and yelling while he did it. he pulled over in a backyard and there was a tricycle. he gets out of the car and jumps on the tricycle. he starts riding it down a hill and onto a tree branch that wraps around and around going steeper and steeper in a downward spiral. he balances though, going faster and faster screaming out "IT'LL BE OKAY, IT'LL BE OKAY, IT'LL BE OKAY".
apparently his son had died while riding a tricycle.. somehow he slows down when the branch is conjoined with another branch above and he runs out of space. a little dizzy, he picks up the tricycle and marches back up the branch, back up the hill to the backyard.

but some women group members already have a grave dug for him, his body is already underground. i come up the hill and say "shouldn't he be buried with this tricycle?" one woman does not want to dig up the grave again. but i do, i dig it up with my hands and bury the tricycle as well. we have about three other graves to dig and boxes to bury. but then all of the group members who died walk up to us. they are alive, and once again mostly celebrities. one who might have been forest whittaker says "part of the secret is there is no religion, therefore no afterlife, so we're here"

and then i am in my kitchen with my sister and maybe jessica dunham, i hear my parents come through the front door.
"how was the movie?" they ask.
"it was really really great.. the best i've seen in a long time"
and my dad asks if he can draw on my tattoo with sharpie to make one part look like a hersheys kiss, i let him but it hurts my skin.

everything that is good

to share my love
to feel you here
to see your spirit
to move in your way
to stablize my being
to radiate my energy
to be with
my soul embraces yours
you are everything that is good